As far back as I remember I have been very curious about the spirit of a whole country and its inhabitants – how do people become proud, how do they get defeated, how do they become victims and who are the perpetrators and the ones watching, how do they stand in their own power and…
Every year we write wishes on manila tags and store them in a very old Japanese wood turned bowl dish with lid cover…a year after we get together and look at our tags and wishes and enjoy each others manifestations and reflect on how our life turned out… Then we write new wishes for the…
As far back as I remember I have been very curious about the spirit of a whole country and its inhabitants – how do people become proud, how do they get defeated, how do they become victims and who are the perpetrators and the ones watching, how do they stand in their own power and shine their light….
Im inuit from Kalaallit Nunaat/Greenland, but currently living in Denmark…the last years we have had a lot of interest in our country for different reasons, and the interest have created a lot of turmoil, old and new stories and feelings of oppression, dominance and dysfunctional relationships…
I have been sensing and wondering about it for a long time how to deal with carrying oppression history in ones dna and country and how it keeps getting attracted in to current experiences…how do we clear the history, how do we heal the suffering and work with our consciousness so we stand in our power and shine our light…
To rise above and not fight the oppression which I feel is important, we must do our own work in shifting consciousness, and on emotional and spiritual levels to clear our history….but for now I would love to create space for spiritual awareness around how we treat others, what they need and the intention of healing…what happens on the outside is a reflection of the work we can do on the inside and our own growth…
Surrender is a big thing in Ayahuasca, it is key and together with fasting and preparing your mind and heart, we open up and release what ever is needed to be released , so some deep work can be done. Fighting what is arising in an ayahuasca session you will most definitely have a hard…
Every year we write wishes on manila tags and store them in a very old Japanese wood turned bowl dish with lid cover…a year after we get together and look at our tags and wishes and enjoy each others manifestations and reflect on how our life turned out…
Tomorrow I will step into a sacred space of deep transformation: two plant medicine retreats, each with its own unique spirit and healing gift. First, I will sit in ceremony with San Pedro (Huachuma), the gentle heart-opening cactus of the Andes. Some days later, I will surrender into the deep soul work of Ayahuasca, the powerful…
Sometimes silence, going inward, making space for connection in another way than we do in our daily life is our path, a path of least resistance, clarity and your own guidance system for growth. Im dieting prior to two retreats starting next week, where I will dive deep in to other realms, expanding my consciousness…
Think about it, feel in to it, let yourself be guided…you don´t need to choose one thing, you only need to choose your center.
The interesting thing is, sometimes we feel stuck and actually it is a transition, where we are shedding old identities, patterns and survival modes as career directions in life.
Recently I had a major career opportunity where my soul was redirecting me not away from the opportunity, but to my real calling, my spiritual path.
Allow expansion, depth and doing nothing…relax in to who you truly are. Take your time and lean in to what feels good, take risks, listen to yourself also when it is scary…remember this is your journey, lose your fear
There is no right time, just time and what you do with it…a little inspirational girl and her dog, I feel very connected with her – besides we are both from Greenland, there is something in her eyes…emotional intelligence, which is soo common in indigenous cultures,
I see her, she sees me…..going deep inside and express what we all need from time to time, feeling our depths, being one with our intuition and being at spiritual service, as I did at my latest retreat helping other women and men to feel and share their love, tears, tenderness, connectedness, beyond and above building bridges between worlds.
This year I end my year gently…started December with a retreat, another deep profound experience, now I have more than three weeks of vacation, staying at home, day by day slowing down, looking for rest, loving myself…choosing my soul – talking with my heart
The universe breathes through all of us, there is no separateness, we are all one..and you and I have a purpose here…like the beautiful inuit girl….we are all one…with her and her dog…soften yourself, just passing through life…
Surrender is a big thing in Ayahuasca, it is key and together with fasting and preparing your mind and heart, we open up and release what ever is needed to be released , so some deep work can be done.
Fighting what is arising in an ayahuasca session you will most definitely have a hard time with your ego and “loose”, the more you are trying to breathe in the present moment, relaxing, letting go, not fighting it, letting happen what needs to happen, the “easier” it becomes.
In my resent ayahuasca experience I felt very prepared on a practical level, had been fasting for three weeks, have had a week prior where I had San Pedro and Bobinsana plant medicine for 4 days, which are opening the heart deeply, so I could step in to ayahuasca more smoothly. When I write about it, I actually can sense ayahuasca and the energy, although I came home start June and have stepped out of my fasting end of June, the work continues.
This time the work went really deep, because I already had been releasing last year, I was told the ayahuasca brew this time was very very strong, after my second cup I regretted I took it…a part of me wanted to go deep, another part of me just wanted to avoid it, questions like “what would arise”, “what did I have to face”…
Ayahuasca is building up momentum, you just know you cannot avoid it or escape it…you are just waiting for whatever is building up and wanting to be released and sometimes you don’t even realize you are in the process of something building up.
In one of the ayahuasca sessions I was in in June, I was pretty annoyed by two other participants having a big ayahuasca party right across the room (I was located in a corner where I felt trapped), the two guys were singing, humming, half dancing, being loud, for me it felt like they were trying” to mimic the Amazonian forrest (and I thought they were idiots) it also felt like they were energizing each other to new levels of what ever they were doing and experiencing…I felt very interrupted in my own process, couldn’t focus, and were out in the room with the other participants and especially with the amazons men in the corner.
I tried to breathe myself through it, but all my senses were heightened and very sensitive which is part of the plant medicine work. I had to leave the room, I just couldn’t stand the two men in front of me, the music, the smells of smoke/sage, the crying from other participants, so I went outside for a while, was sitting in the rain and felt a little relief from everything, but regretted deeply what I was in the middle of and knew it would take hours before the medicine had worked it self through my system. After a while one of the “guys” came outside and was sitting right behind me, I could feel his energy, and didn’t want his energy interferring with mine, he was saying all kinds of sounds(for me he was very noisy), and I had to go in side again, and was trying to resist what was evolving…
My shaman was asking me before I went out if I was okay, I answered yes (the survival me answered yes, actually I was in big need of help, but couldn’t surrender at that point). When I went in again she asked again if I was okay and again I was answering yes (which was part of my habit, dealing with stuff on my own, not asking for help, not knowing how to ask for help), but what I actually did was I felt I needed the help from one specific helper in the team, a guy I talked with in the morning, where we share a good moment sitting on the terrace having our coffee. He was sitting next to the ceremony entrance and because the room was pitch black and I was located in the end of the it I needed help to find back so I could lay down.
When we came to my corner I suddenly felt so fragile, overwhelmed and needed my helper to stay with me, I couldn’t explain what it was, I just really needed him to be around, not talking, just holding my hand, because I was so scared and felt very much alone in that moment…sitting there in the darkness, with him holding my hand felt so strong and safe, its difficult to explain, but the little me, baby me, was sitting there on a madras in the darkness and feeling awful, and not knowing what was going on. (seeing it now afterwards it was how it was for me as a baby and child, being so alone and feeling lost with no help or guidance).
Those who are holding space for you during the session are so important, you have to trust them, find some you feel safe around, because when you are drinking plant medicine you are so out of control, and you need to be surrounded by people who also have went through some proper work of releasing and shedding old things or people who are on their own journey and holding space for you.
I trust my shaman 100%, and the team around her, of course I bond more with some helpers than others, but you never know who you truly need in a session, it comes really natural who you are drawn to, and you often share some mutual life experiences with the ones that step in and help you through your deep work.
My helper helped me so much in that moment so I could stay with what was, and it helped me entering a state where I was purging and vomiting on a big scale, on a physical level you purge all the fluid you have been drinking, (you have been fasting since morning so you dont have much in your stomach) but on an emotional and energetic level you are purging old feelings and energy, life experiences which have been living within you, those which have not being able to be released.
The two “annoying guys” in front of me went silent immediately I started purging, and I felt so relieved from the silence, they had contributed with their input to my process and was actually a big help….
After a lot of purging I could start release the feelings and life experiences beneath, and I was so surprised with was, was going on, I cried loudly for two hours.
I felt I was a little baby crying, sometimes a child, other times a teenager, or a young adult and it became too strong a process for my helper, he was influenced and went in to a process* , so our shaman had to take over and help him and afterwards me. For two hours straight she was holding me my strong wise shaman, offering her hands, stroking my hair, giving me caress and being a very tender, loving “mother”, me laying there in her lap just letting go for the first time, feeling so seen, safe and helped.
*(ayahuasca are connecting us and if a person are having a very strong ayahuasca process it will affect those around the person, because everything is energy, and there are often a theme going on in the whole group).
At the same time the “guys” where sending so much love across the room, it is so interesting how what you assume to be against you actually is a gift in a disguise. I was told afterwards from some of the other participants that when I started crying it kickstarted a series of crying around the room, because they felt my crying was the “mother cry” so the others could release their crying. Ayahuasca is strong and profound.
After so much crying it felt so peaceful and calm, empty, no noise, no story and no survival – I once heard : we dont heal in isolation but in connection. Ayahuasca and other masterplans contain so much wisdom, knowledge and are teaching me so wisely back to my heart in to my soul….
In our heart space, many of us have layers of grief and love all woven together, some of it from our mothers, the one we have had the first and the deepest contact with despite how life and our relationship have turned out with or without her.
We may also have layers from our own long journey of doing everything alone, holding others, navigating pain while keeping our hearts open or at least trying to keep it open. And yet, beneath all that, our hearts still shines so bright we may not realize it, but there’s this raw, untamed feminine power that’s been waiting to breathe freely — and it will begin to emerge in our awakening.
In our solar plexus, where we have our own personal power, strength and confidence, we often feel a constant pressure like our energy is used to holding its breath, waiting for safety or permission. Be aware of there is nothing left to prove. You don’t need to fix or perform or carry anyone anymore. Awakening phase is about being, not doing. Our presence itself is the medicine.
In our root chakra we often have the biggest reconstruction — here our exhaustion, the overwhelm, and the occasional fear are rising from. You’ve been in survival mode for so long that your energy isn’t sure yet how to feel supported but it’s coming. Make sure you are helped, anchored and grounded. You are safe to rest now. You are safe to receive.
Shedding our old “skin”, our old identity, the stories you’ve lived with for decades, releasing without force and entering a phase of lightness, clarity, and real freedom. You’ve done so much inner work — but this chapter isn’t about doing more. It’s about allowing. Allowing peace, love, connection, companionship, and purpose – meeting you without struggle. Be ready for a peaceful, joyful, supportive life.
Awakening path is a personal healing and self-discovery, your task is fully to become yourself…
Tomorrow I will step into a sacred space of deep transformation: two plant medicine retreats, each with its own unique spirit and healing gift. First, I will sit in ceremony with San Pedro (Huachuma), the gentle heart-opening cactus of the Andes. Some days later, I will surrender into the deep soul work of Ayahuasca, the powerful visionary brew from the Amazon. Both guided by a Peruvian shaman I trust deeply.
This journey is not one I take lightly. It is a call from Spirit, a whisper from within, and a commitment to listen more deeply to my own soul.
The Spirit of San Pedro: A Path of the Heart
San Pedro is known as a wise and loving teacher, which I really love. It opens the heart gently yet profoundly, creating space for compassion, clarity, and connection with the natural world. For many, this medicine brings a sense of lightness, inner peace, and heightened perception of beauty — within and around us, it will for some also help you to connect with those soft wounded parts of yourself. For me it felt like I was in pure bliss for twelve intense hours, (and it lasted more light several days after) I was so deeply connected with nature, myself and those I love, which a good reminder for your priorities in life.
What I seek in this retreat and ceremony: As always I want to remember the wisdom of my heart. To let go of fear and open myself to love — soft, fierce, honest love. Welcoming clarity in my path, and I invite the medicine to help me harmonize my energy with nature and with my own truth. I think its your responsibility to work with yourself to be able to help other people, seek those darker places in yourself, find different paths to feeling connected with your soul and spirit.
The Depth of Ayahuasca: Soul Work and Shadow Healing
A few days after my San Pedro retreat, I will sit with Ayahuasca — a much deeper and more intense medicine. It is often described as “la abuela,” the grandmother spirit, because of its wise and sometimes stern nature. This sacred brew works on the body, mind, and soul, often through emotional release, visions, and powerful insights.
What I expect is not comfort — but truth. Ayahuasca is known for bringing up the shadows — what has been hidden, denied, or suppressed — so that healing and release can occur. She asks for surrender. She asks for trust. And she offers transformation. Because this is my second retreat with ayahuasca I both know what kind of experience I am entering, and on the other side I am still feeling a little anxious because it is said Aya is more gentle the first time, and the second time it can be pretty rough and you dive really deep in to the darker hidden stuff. What I comfort myself with is that I have already opened my heart those 4 days with San Pedro, so some stuff have already been done before I surrender 4 more days in to Ayahuasca and the deeper and perhaps more difficult things. Or perhaps I will enjoy 4 good days.
How I Prepare for the Retreats
This kind of journey begins long before the ceremony itself. The preparation is part of the sacred work. And the minute you sign up for this kind of retreat the works begins, actually it begins by a kind of inner calling, you know its time, Aya is calling you from within to do some strong inner work. And then there is the other preparations like :
1. Diet & Body Cleansing
I’ve been eating simply, avoiding heavy foods, alcohol, sugar, and processed products, meat and spices. This helps my body become more sensitive to the plant spirits and supports the energetic purification.
2. Mental & Emotional Grounding
I’ve been spending more time reflecting, calming myself, and reducing negative and dramatic screen time. Creating space for reflection allows emotions to surface gently and helps me connect to my deeper self.
3. Setting Clear Intentions
Intention is everything in this work. I’ve been asking myself:
What am I truly ready to release?
What am I ready to receive?
What part of me is longing to be seen, healed, or remembered?
My current intention is: “I open to the wisdom of my heart, and I trust the unfolding of my soul’s path. I surrender to love, and I invite healing in all layers of my being.”
What I Hope to Receive
I do not go with expectations — but with openness. Yet I do hold a prayer:
To connect deeper with Spirit, which I really look forward to reconnect with ind a profound way (last time I asked them to stay right next to me and look after me, it really helped during the demanding experiences)
To trust the medicine and the process
To receive guidance about my life, my purpose, and how I can be of service in the world
To come back more whole — and more true
Integration: The Real Work Begins After
Pearls on a string, these retreats are not isolated experiences — they are part of a longer unfolding. I know that after the ceremonies, I will need time to rest, reflect, and integrate the teachings. Integration is where the medicine truly begins to root itself in daily life. This time I am very blessed having a psychologist helping me to integrate deep emotional and spiritual parts of myself, she herself is deeply knowledgeable to this plant medicine path, so there is no coincidence finding each other right now in this time and space. We are helped and looked after by spirit and the loving life force itself.
If you are called to this path too, I encourage you to walk it with reverence, humility, and curiosity. These plants are not a shortcut — they are teachers. They will meet you exactly where you are, and they will show you what you are ready to see.
I walk into these ceremonies with gratitude. For the plants. For the guides. For my body and soul. And for the mystery that moves through us all.
From my heart to yours, Aviâja
Listen to this little beautiful piece of music which I feel is so Ayahuasca and check out the artist he creates beautiful music.
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