Being present to all I really am

How do we realize we are so much more than what we think we are, is a change of perception. It is an area I always have loved to dive in to since my early early teens. In periods have I felt the expansion, my limitlessness, my infinite intelligence, the source behind everything, in other times I have felt like a little tight closed ball, stuck in my limiting beliefs, a state where my thoughts have been running the show and I have been trying to figure out my current situation. In other periods it has been a mixture of both and I think it’s quite normal to go back and forward between these states till your awakening are stabilizing itself.

When you enter this human world, You don’t remember anything about who you are, You get glimpses and sensations that you are more than your human state, perhaps through life changing experiences which helps you to expand your consciousness or by being curious, you go back to your normal state, live your life being in charge and control and unaware of your bigger state, sorting things out, sometimes things falls apart, doesn’t work as you thought they would and sometimes you are being forced in to expansion.

The process can be speeded up by unhappiness and a feeling of emptiness, and by what you thought would fulfill you doesn’t actually provided the feeling you thought it would and then your perception are shifting and you are seeking answers and meaning in your current life situation or life in general. Often you are finding answers and are having breakthroughs, you are expanding, it goes back and forth, other times you enter disillusionment and are feeling lost, and are dealing with not having any fixation points to help you…but the feeling of lostness and disillusioned state actually helps you to step in to deep inner work, you may not always see it yourself, it happens inside of you, you sense something is going on and you are in this soup, sometimes hard, strange, alone, but bit by bit you end up in integration, expansion and joy again…

Being at the brink of the dark night of the soul can be the turning point in our expansion. I have had my amount of dark nights of the soul, the feeling of meaninglessness, no matter how hard we try to do the right thing nothing seems to work. We may distract ourself with addictions, the supposedly positive and right things (affirmations, positive outlook on life and so on), ceremonies (cacao, fire, letting go…), too much work and other distractions, nothing seems to work and ease it up, it is first when we surrender, when we give up, let go of the control, say I cannot figure it out, help me, when we realize Im stuck, Im striving, I’m efforting, I have certain habits of thoughts which doesn’t help me, and we may even try to ignore all of it, suppress it and stress it out. But when we feel it, when we acknowledge our pain, our suffering and lostness we are making space for the “call” of awakening.

The surrender is through the pain, the striving, the the the…we are here to realize we are not our limitations, we are not this little tight ball of being stuck, we have inside of us this innate fresh wisdom, this ability to expand and we can allow infinite intelligence flowing through us and guide us towards what we need. We are source energy, the creating force behind everything, the whole of us, we are pure consciousness, like a sun expressing itself through sun rays, the ocean with its waves, the sky and its weather.

How do we know we are this state – this state of who you really are – your true nature – this formless energy, you know it because it is/you are aware, you notice you are aware, an intelligence of all knowing, the one noticing the thinker behind the thinking. Going beyond your limiting beliefs, beyond what is said without the filter of your pain and suffering is to give up the small self.

It’s part of the journey that we forget who we truly are, that we wake up from the thinking we use against ourself, that we see it, and waking up from it helps us to receive the insights, new wisdom and a change in experience. The little self, the tightness, the limiting you, the striving and efforting you, look at it as a state you can use as your helper, your pointer in your expansion and see you are currently in this limited space and you can choose to see yourself in a much broader perspective.

We think we are someone in this moment and have no idea how it will unfold, when we let go (not the same as doing nothing)of the tiny intelligence we allow the energy of all things to breathe through us, inspire us, show us our path, solutions, new wisdom and perspective, it moves us and new desires show up. The little limited one in us wants to keep it as it is, the bigger and true part of ourself wants to expand.

Hoberman Sphere

waking up

As far back as I remember I have been very curious about the spirit of a whole country and its inhabitants – how do people become proud, how do they get defeated, how do they become victims and who are the perpetrators and the ones watching, how do they stand in their own power and…

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weaving prayers ….

Every year we write wishes on manila tags and store them in a very old Japanese wood turned bowl dish with lid cover…a year after we get together and look at our tags and wishes and enjoy each others manifestations and reflect on how our life turned out… Then we write new wishes for the…

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Choose with your heart and intuition

Perhaps you are new to my page, thank you for stepping by, I love you are here on my website which I am creating from passion, my heart and soul. Im a healer, medium, psychic and spiritual teacher and offer the sessions you see below and from time to time hosting different events like circles and mini readings.

I am offering new services at my booking page – you can book the new sessions through the links here :

Trance mediumship
Your Spirit Guide reading
Aura reading

If you like to check out my other services use this link

Inualife booking page

We are connected with everything in the Universe, we are so much more than the common limitations and viewpoints, we are connected through energy and conciousness. Im here to help you being led by your Soul, Im also here to help you rise above comfort, your self imposed limitations, and to help you remember the pure state of love and your soul connection. You are powerful and limitless.

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Much love Aviaja, Inualife

That’s family business

Family isn’t always blood, last name, dna or a social construct, it’s determined more by behavior, like loyalty, trust and love. It has taken me many many years to understand this…it is the people standing beside you when no one else is, it is the ones who accept you for the one you are, its about commitment, its about showing up, choosing and seeing you, also the days where you struggle, and its also about who is willing to hold your hand when you need it. Your family is those you know you always can turn to. I have never asked my children to love relatives that don’t see or ask about them….and it’s okay to step back from family.

I think most people working with themselves are aware of that the unhealthy behavior from family didn’t start with the family you were wounded from, it started much earlier in other generations in the lineage, often in both lineages, like attracts like, and we inherit family traumas until one is ending them by healing the trauma, and choosing something else. Your family help you to grow and become a stronger and more sensitive person, and sometimes become someone who wisely choose different in life.

We can forget what other people said and what they did, but I dont think we will forget how they made us feel…you always know when it comes from the heart. We always know who deserves special places in our hearts. An area where you can measure if family members should have a prominent role in your life is the amount of joy they actual add to your life.

I read this quote today : “In family life, love is the oil that eases friction, the cement that binds closer together, and the music that brings harmony”. Eva Burrows. Love is a choice with wide open eyes, choosen moment to moment…

I always wanted to have a big family, a strong bonded family and a family which cares for each other and show vulnerability, affection and love…..I created it myself and that feels good….growing up in a very dysfunctional family with all kinds of issues, it has taken me many years to heal, and grow in to the parent I needed myself, I was brave enough to share my vulnerability with my own children and in this way created a soft place to fall in to for all of us….appreciation, acceptance and being valued are the path to feeling more complete (also in your incompleteness), the feeling of receiving love you have inside no matter the challenges – thats what matters…I know to love unconditionally is a work in progress –

Over the years I have become more and more picky with whom I give my energy to. Time, level of commitment and my spirit are given to those who share the same genuineness. My own little family, my two girls and my cat is the best unit I ever can imagine and have, they are my favorite people in the world, they represent the most beautiful things, people, memories, places, feelings, moments, laughter, depths, vulnerability, integrity, honesty, support and love in life.

Ps. family is more than mother, father, siblings, the extended family its also our pets/animals.

arriving

..north of Stockholm – 2 weeks, 2 retreats, inner work, familiar and new faces, the heart is already opening, soft, calm, peaceful

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Intuition first, everything else second

My intuition is what my business is based on…and I love it…Intuition first and everything else second is both a reminder, but also how you share what you offer from your soul – use your intuition to help other people. Your intuition is your best friend, it talks through your body, through your energy, through your knowing, and the more you trust it and follow it the easier it gets to hear and follow. I love to offer my intuition in mediumship readings, (in all my readings and sessions).

Intuition is when you align with yourself, its when you are expansive and open, you have a strong connection with yourself, its the source of wisdom from Spirit, for me its my favorite super power, it is when you are listening within instead of to books and other people, you need to be open towards where your intuition leads you, intuition gives insights about the best paths in your current life, it helps you when you are in unknown territory and it also helps you to be more flexible…

I rarely prepare before my readings (besides a few), I trust my intuition and connection with my higher spirit and soul, and let it guide me in sessions. In a mediumship reading I relax, let go, silent myself, and open myself up to Spirit and when I sense someone is around, we blend our energy fields, and they offer their personality, impressions, thoughts, feelings, memories, reminders, messages and so much more upon my energy field and I deliver the information to my sitter/client. Every time is a new meeting, although I make readings for the same person and meet the same loved ones in some of my sessions, its still new, because they share other sides of themselves, and want to connect with their loved ones in other ways and around other subjects than the previous ones, or in deeper ways, with other perspectives and understanding. Mediumship readings are wide and I consider them exclusively as an expression of connection, healing, love and new levels of understanding and sacredness, never as entertainment.

I have uploaded a video on my YouTube channel Inualife about mediumship readings. I have had some amazing and very touching readings lately (I always feel I have amazing readings), where Spirit who passed away some weeks ago came through and passed spirit children came through for their parents. All this life, losses, all these emotions, overwhelming, love, compassion, peace, forgiveness, new levels of understanding, lessons learned, new skills achieved, confirmations, healing and simply love arising and unfolding beyond realms, there is so much within mediumship.

“You are a wonderful medium. Your delivery was confident and you made clear statements that made me, as the recipient, feel in safe hands. I enjoyed how well you captured my grandma’s personality and emotions, and her message was very fitting. Many thanks and love to you” the lovely words from one of my readings I did last week….and a lovely message that we keep our connection with those we love.

“Plant spirit medicine is the shamans way with plants. It recognizes that plants have spirit and that spirit is the strongest medicine, it can heal the deepest reaches of the heart and soul” – Eliot Cowan

Tomorrow I will step into a sacred space of deep transformation: two plant medicine retreats, each with its own unique spirit and healing gift. First, I will sit in ceremony with San Pedro (Huachuma), the gentle heart-opening cactus of the Andes. Some days later, I will surrender into the deep soul work of Ayahuasca, the powerful…

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Accept in your heart

Sometimes silence, going inward, making space for connection in another way than we do in our daily life is our path, a path of least resistance, clarity and your own guidance system for growth. Im dieting prior to two retreats starting next week, where I will dive deep in to other realms, expanding my consciousness…

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This is more than developing the spiritual skills through the soul, this is the work of Spirit

This post is a little bit of everything but mainly about the spiritual work we did at the Azores.

Life is a stream of energy vibrations interacting, affecting everything around you and within you and everything in the Universe have an effect on you and your life, but you are the master of your own life and are having a personal responsibility for your own destiny.

Your soul and mind qualities keep growing, evolving and maturing in the spirit realm, so spirits on the other side like to work with us on this side through connection. So part of being a medium is to make yourself available for those in the spirit realm to they can express themselves one way or another, the amount of expression is a matter of the mediums capacity and willingness to allow the inner self to evolve and create a bond with the spirit realm. Personally I never thought I would enter the trance mediumship field, but spirit had other plans.

In the spring I really went deeper in to my development of trance mediumship having 1:1 sessions with my mentor Josef Siegle and it helped me to progress faster and deeper, so I felt my level would be fine for the workshop at the Azores. I recently had this wonderful trip to the Azores where we were a group of mediums, mainly trance mediums meeting and practicing, working and creating connections with the spirit world through trance speaking, trance healing, trance figuration (a change of form or appearance the mediums body change in to the form spirit have taken), seances (spirit blend with the medium at the physical level, spirit speaks and take over the body and functions of the medium) and a lot of meditation helping our minds to let go of control and just be.

Some of the mediums participating do I meet on a regular basis every week in a trance circle Im part of, other mediums have I trained or practiced with in different workshops or circles, but I haven’t met any of them psychically, and again some didn’t I know, so it was wonderful to meet and access other levels of understanding and bonds with each other.

Trance mediumship work focus point is the the qualities of the medium, everything around the communication coming from Spirit is based on the skills and level of the medium, and it is also what decides the results of the communication and activities. Not to say you need to be highly skilled to be a trance medium, it’s more your qualities of being a living instrument a “telephone” for the spirit world. You can compare it with a violinist getting a better result with a high quality violin like a Stradivarius, because the beauty and quality makes spirit able to bring forward better results. So the character of the medium has a big impact on the quality, results and the power of attraction between spirit and the medium.

Health is an important area within this field, and it is so much more than exercises and your diet, the health of the spirit within demands some development, your ability to hear, speak and see beyond the physical world. Being sensitive to the spiritual world, the energy, the infinite source/love/spark surrounding us all that richness and beauty, for some its invisible, for others visible. But being open to develop it, through art or doing what you love, by surrounding yourself with people you feel connected with, through stillness, can help you be connected with the spiritual power. It’s a way of receiving inspiration and wisdom from Source Energy/The infinite Intelligence/God/Love /The big Spirit what ever you call it.

Intuition is your pathway, its the voice of Spirit and its the tool Spirit are using to become aware of one Self passing the Ego state and sensing something much larger than the human state. Intuition is you balancing and creating harmony with being a more clear reciever of information from your Soul/Spirit. Inspiration is part of it, you can be conscious or unconscious tuning in to the information from Source Energy.

When Spirit blends with the medium a lot of psychical changes happen in the main functions of the body, changes in the heart beat, pulse, temperature, blood circulation and the breath, it mainly happens in the blending state between the medium and spirit, but throughout the session and blending changes can happen. Who that are coming through can vary, sometimes it is someone from the family, other times there is no earthly connection, instead its a spiritual connection between your soul and a Spirit where you have decided to fulfill a task you have agreed about.

This time I brought through one of my guides, which have tried to come through in a much stronger way over a longer period of time, but I haven’t felt ready for it and with this power. It can feel unfamiliar in a way that someone else is in your energy field and are blending with you with a lot of power and energy. You need to feel comfortable with letting go of control, surrender and step aside, ego find it highly disturbing, so its a matter of letting your spirit take over and put the ego to rest, or ask ego to quiet down. Ego can be quite persistent about being around and wanting to have the last word.

You are kind of melting together you and spirit, and the energy from all the mediums in the circle helps you with the blend. You can also sit for yourself and blend, but as a beginner the group energy helps with the blending because of it’s power and can help you until you learn to build strong power yourself. The group dynamic is also very important, groups where some of the members have frictions create disharmony between spirit and the medium. You are working with mental forces, so invisible thoughts, impulses, wills and wishes affects the communication. It can take years to create good results in a circle – you meet week after week and have no results, and you can meet a week like we did and have a lot of results – like we did.

I think our good results had to do with our location at Saô Miguel at the Azores, the space we worked in, the 520 years old convent where monks had been praying a lot and worked with healing, the group dynamic, skills and of course our highly skilled teacher and his level of guidance made a huge difference in the results of the presence of Spirit.

Spirit made themselves very present in so many ways throughout the week, there were messages from loved ones, from guides, from monks who had lived at the convent, we witnessed things moving and becoming alive (table, glass and other items moving fast and up in the air without us doing anything), faces of Spirit showed up in front of the mediums, the temperature of the place had sudden changes cold and warm, spirit spelled out messages and gave a lot of written messages.

See the end of this post a wonderful example, where our teacher one late evening left a blank piece of paper and a pen placed upright a private place, and the next morning there was a message and a drawing at the paper, the words HAPPY and it looks like some mountains.

I love this work, so I will end this post and sit quiet for a moment and connect with spirit. May you all enjoy your day and thank you Spirit and the loving energy which surrounds us, breathe us, the Source we already are.

Our main room for work at the convent
My lovely teacher Josef, my lovely trance circle member Sylvia and Susanne
The Ilhéu de Vila Franca do Compo island in front of our Convent
The Ilhéu de Vila Franca do Compo island. The main entrance to the lagoon is located right in front of the cross at the convent
The Ilhéu de Vila Franca do Compo island
Vanessa, Patrick and I
Some of our group before some work
Enjoying a lovely local dinner
beautiful Saô Miguel
Spirit were very active and used our solar plexus energy to move around the table
just holding hands on the top of the table

Getting ready for a seance, first trance figuration and after that a trance which is performed in darkness

As some said, we looked like monks, but we are just adding some energy to spirit/table and it had just started to move
A message from spirit – HAPPY

Selflove

I have uploaded a video on my Youtube channel about Selflove – Follow this link : https://youtu.be/Q5_eFkHwGtw

Do it for you

The importance of selflove is tremendous and it can be what you actually are looking for in your life. If you haven’t been taught what selflove is you probably need to go through several processes to understand that what you need is yourself. We all know that meditation, a shower, calling a friend, cooking a nice meal, music and so on can help you, but there is so much more to selflove. Staying in a place of love towards yourself can look like :

Being kind to yourself although the situation didn’t turn out the way you imagined. Resting enough, listening to your own body or mind, I think I need to rest now – also when it is in the middle of the day or right before dinner. Being satisfied with your 30% effort is as good as 110% because you listened to yourself. Eating when you are hungry, also when work doesn’t look like it allows you to eat…pause and give yourself that meal, your body and whole system needs it. Honor your boundaries – you know when you are helping from your heart and helping from obligation and norms. Offer yourself kind thoughts when people have another opinion about you and what you are doing, self worth isn’t defined by others. Letting go of comparison and being yourself in the present moment means you are choosing you and that’s enough, you are unique, there is no one like you. Remember who you are living your life for -yourself, be visible, share your light. Prioritize yourself every day, lots of self care. Remember that your body hear what your mind is saying, so talk nice to yourself. Walk healthy paths and let go of those who hurt you. Go more and more with the flow and remind yourself that you cannot control most things in life and it is so freeing to let go. You cannot get too much love, love is everything. Give yourself the opportunity to remember how good you are doing despite the circumstances. Taking good care of yourself is good for everybody else, it’s an investment in a good and positive ripple effect in your life and other peoples life. Your own company is pretty good company – choose yourself. Stuck, confused and lost in life is actually pointers and helpers, they show you areas where you can let go of old layers of who you are not anymore and they allow you the opportunity to become yourself, look at it and deal with it with selflove. A small step is also a step. Slowing down can sometimes be what you need, it helps you to hear yourself clearly. Allow yourself what you need. Growth is part of selflove and that needs time, being patient with yourself, compassionate, loving, flowing with life, accepting what is, no matter what. You can rely on yourself. Your home is your body, mind and soul. You are enough, find the space and time for yourself every day. Selflove is about looking after yourself in a good way. Who are you spending time with and how? That’s also selflove who enters your personal space, and who you spend time with and how. It’s about creating a balance in your life and with your energy, spending time with yourself, doing what you love, understanding your own needs, get enough sleep. Trusting your instincts, your gut, your intuition is helping you with selflove. Selflove can also be not having a plan and give it over to the infinite intelligence. Selflove is that little flower you kept in your cover and reminds you of something good. Selflove is also getting out of your comfort zone and realizing you have potential and abilities to share. Be your own highest priority.

Selflove is a way of putting yourself on your spiritual journey.

Me offering myself some selflove through healing – Azores September 2024

Creating my life

Love what you see

For a period of time you keep peace in your life, but you know that truth will show it self over time, you know that change is inevitable it’s only a matter of time.

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Love what you see

Living a life where you don’t feel the people you are surrounded by either understand you, see you or they are asking you to be as them can be quite lonely. Not being able to be yourself is affecting us in different ways, we can deal with it with very different strategies. Trying to fit in and pleasing others and their needs is a very common way to deal with it. In our need of being accepted, trying to belong to a group and being loved. My experience is we will do a lot to fit in and ignore the one we truly are.

You already know when you are not you, because you sense it, you become a shadow of yourself, you become invisible, you are perhaps more quiet and calm on the outside but screaming on the inside, or more outgoing to and outspoken to avoid your own inner company and the one you truly are. You perhaps feel that people don’t listen to you or are not interested in what you have to say, don’t find your humor interesting or consider you silent, because you have so different interest’ , perspectives of life that you never really talk about the things that interest you. You just get so used to be a shadow of who you are, and make it work in the setting you’re in at work, at home, with your relationships/acquaintances.

You may have been following in the footsteps of the wellknown from childhood home, you may have chosen the types of people similar to those you grew up with because it feels safe, but at the same time not are your kind of people, because they dont see you for the one you actually are in your depths, or are curious understanding who you are. When you choose safety over yourself, and similar lifepatterns you saw when you grew up, you have found your own strategy and make it work in a way, you deal with it in the way that you live your life, get married, have some children, go to work, take care of dailylife things, encourage your people and on the outside in a way show you are content, but on the inside disappear more and more. You may also limit yourself and your own expression, because your people dont show interest’ in the real you. Have you tried it? Do you recognize it?

Although you accept lesser than nothing and are an effort to keep it working, you may think other people and their messy lifes are pathetic, but in fact inside are deadly afraid of messing it all up as well, you may try to keep everything the same, because you can’t deal with the danger of your own questions about your life choices, relationships and consequences.

For a period of time you keep peace in your life, but you know that truth will show it self over time, you know that change is inevitable it’s only a matter of time. You’re having deeper conversations with yourself, a deeper relationship with yourself, asking yourself some new questions, choosing new dailylife patterns, getting out there where you can’t control things – thats how life helps you to be your authentic true self and change the “curse” of your life.

Look at your life, who are truly curious about you? Are you happy or in deep sorrow about your life? Sometimes we make immense sacrifices to live the life we want. I remember when I decided to get a divorce and split up my family with two smaller children, I felt a deep sorrow next to so much joy in life. Looking back and having brought a huge sacrifice I still think it’s so important to live our life as we want it, feel the warmth inside of being truthful, giving ourself the version life we need, are longing for, and feel aligned inside out.

When you start choosing yourself, shower your sorrow of your old life with the joy of life you get through it. Find the places in your life where you feel safe in a new way, by yourself, without your phone, no newspaper, books , tv or a lot of other people and help yourself to walk around in your life not feeling you are silly. When you let yourself be you without restrictions you can breathe the fresh air again, you get curious, you become more loose about yourself and your image, you become free, you give yourself permission to not being mediocre, you meet your own gaze in the mirror without closing your eyes, you keep the gaze, are looking, looking at yourself, your life and see your own magnificence. There is only one You, love what you see.